One of my early, and most devastating, childhood memories happened when I was in the 3rd grade. It may seem silly. And it certainly wasn’t the pain that some of your stories hold. But, it is a chapter of my life that forever shaped me, and for too long, defined me.
Sometimes, it still sneaks its crushing way into the whispers of my heart. And I feel small.
This is the first time I’ve ever written about it. And, I’m a little nervous. Not only because I’m revealing a secret wound, but, if I’m honest, because He is revealing His secret purposes through that wound. And that can be, overwhelming.
It’s a storyline where my little girl heart first (unknowingly) longed for, and discovered, the gift of grace.
I would spend hours tucked away in my room, quiet, safe, free from the opinions of others.
Where I could make sense of my whirling thoughts and just be me. Deep down.
Say what I truly felt, and be fully understood.
As a school girl, my lock and key diary, stamped with the words, DO NOT OPEN!!!, became my trusted friend. As a teenager, I graduated to a flower-covered journal, lock-free but safely hidden away of course.
As I grew into a young woman, Grace also grew my heart. I was less worried about who may discover my words, and more concerned about how my words intersected with His, and may someday impact others. So I began to chronicle some of my hopes and dreams in the margins of my Bible and books written by sister-mentors.
Now, as a grown-up girl; wife of a big-dreamer, risk-taking, glass-half-full husband; mama to boys-times-three and passionate-times-ten; orphan advocate; and Jesus-pursuer, this space will be where I continue my quest for just the right words.
Words that somehow express what I really long for the grace to say. More importantly, the grace to be.
My keyboard will be my pen…
as I uncover treasure in His Word
as I unravel truth in the hard and wonderful
as I unexpectedly receive amazing grace
I hope you leave this place, full.
Because when we receive this one-of-a-kind Grace, we are finally free to see, and give, the gift of all that’s grace.
“God is able to make every grace overflow to you, so that in every way, always having everything you need, you may excel in every good work.” (2 Corinthians 9:8)